Closure.

I think I’ve finally achieved closure. I didn’t realize that I needed closure until recently. It feels good to have closure, very liberating. I feel like a thorn has been taken out of my heart. I cried. I haven’t had a good cry in a very long time. I didn’t cry tears of sadness, they were tears of relief actually. I feel like I’ve gotten back something that I’ve lost. I hope it continues this way. I am so thankful. I am finally ready to move on, completely, after all these years.

I went up to the Bay area last weekend for some concerts/gigs with Papuri. It was quite a hectic weekend, but such a blessing all the way through. We left LA early Friday morning, around 3:30am and arrived in San Bruno around 11am. We drove. Barely got any chance to take a nap, then we headed over to the Church of the Highlands at 4:30pm to do soundcheck, went back to Rey and Jemimah Lacap’s home, freshened up, got dressed and then headed back to the church for our concert at 7pm. Man alive, was I tired! My voice finally gave out during my solo, “Can’t Live A Day” (the Avalon song). I don’t exactly know how it sounded, I just knew that I had nothing left. I was surprised I could still go on for the rest of the concert. Anyway, it was a very exhausting night. I couldn’t wait to get back to the hotel and catch up on some sleep.

My dearest friend RC, and his wife Aimee came to the concert on Friday night, along with their adorable little boy, Xander. I was so thrilled to see them, especially Xander. I haven’t seen them since PJ’s wedding last year, and to see them again, this time with their baby boy was just a blessing. I really appreciate them for coming to the concert, driving 45 minutes, and with Xander not being fully recovered from his cold. It just means so much to me that they came.
Saturday, was an easy day for us. We sang at a mall in Serramonte, and then headed over to San Jose, for a concert at Full Gospel Christian Fellowship. This time around, I was relieved that I didn’t have to sing a solo, because my voice was just not cooperating at all. It was nice to just sit back and hear everyone else sing. After the concert, we had a really wonderful meal prepared for us by the Pastor’s wife, (lugaw and pan de sal), and then we decided to check out the Golden Gate Bridge at night because one of our guys in the group (Mel) has never been to the States before. It was his first trip to the US so we wanted to show him the Golden Gate Bridge. Let me tell yah, wasn’t quite a good idea to go check it out at night. We couldn’t really take a great picture of it since it was too dark out, and to top it all off, it was really, really cold! Anyway, we didn’t stay there that long, headed back to the hotel right after.

Sunday morning, sang a couple of songs at Rey and Jem’s church, Crossroads Christian Assembly, had lunch, then got ready at the Lacaps’ for our 5pm concert at Church of the Highlands again. This time around, my dear friends, Mark and Ruth, both of whom I’ve know since my days at Biola, came to see me. It was wonderful seeing them again, I wish I had more time to spend with them, but right after the COH concert, we had to rush over to Crossroads to do a short set. After Crossroads, we all headed over to Starbucks for a nightcap. That was quite a Sunday we had. Looking around the table, I couldn’t help but be amazed and thank God that I’m part of something special like Papuri. That night at the hotel, some of us got to spend some time just sharing blessings, burdens and concerns. We ended the night praying for each other. That was truly a blessing.

I miss San Bruno. I miss Jem and Rey. I can’t wait to go back. I’m already looking forward to our next concert.